Wednesday, January 23, 2008
I posted this picture of Malaena for a couple of reasons. First and foremost, she looks like a little angel and so at peace. At "PEACE"....that is a hard place to be and stay when you are dealing with an adoption in Guatemala. This "wait" is one of the hardest things I have ever done. What makes it so hard because we totally knew this was part of the deal going in? Well, once I held Malaena-Sloan, I was swept away in 2.3 seconds. After that, I wanted to be with her 24/7 and not miss a thing. Also, everyone we know is aware of our daughter-to-come and they know it will be March-ish before getting her home. They forget all that, so I spend much of my day each day explaining "what" takes SO long. I realize people are being concerned and trying to be supportive, but it's hard. I know with everything in me that God puts us through each day to learn something. I'll be perfectly honest, I know that Jesus Christ is carrying me through all this because I do have "PEACE." I have no reservations about Malaena-Sloan fitting into our family, I have no reservations about her transition when she gets home....I have total "PEACE" that she is our daughter and meant to be a part of our family! I am so thankful that we decided to step out on faith! I spoke with Ashley, our adoption coordinator, today. She was simply calling to check-in and we should be getting an update very soon!
Did you take the time to check out the blog I mentioned yesterday? I hope so. Through this blog of a young couple that I don't even know, God has spoken to me. It's like the ULTIMATE testimony! It's wonderful seeing how God has used this blog to touch me and to put what I am going through into perspective! What I am experiencing is hard, but I know my daughter is in a safe place tonight and she WILL come home. The young couple has a mature faith in God that is an inspiration to me.
***Footnote about Brock: He has been fighting sinus stuff, so he stayed home from school today and rested. I cut his hair this evening, and we got to talking about how much we missed Steve (his daddy.) Well, he shared with me that he dreams about him almost every night. He said that in his dreams, he hangs out with Steve and he usually hugs him it feels so good and he doesn't want to wake up. I told him that I really believed that God gives him the dreams to keep his daddy close to him....to comfort his broken heart! WOW!